These last 30 hours have been just hard as the first phone call I received. You are never ready for new news, when you think that you have most of the information. Yesterday the cries and panic attacks hit harder than they ever have before. You think that nothing else can shock you, but I was wrong. Once again I had to make phone calls, I had to ask my kids to help me. I couldn’t go through the questions over and over again. Growing up I was always told that God doesn’t give you more than you can handle, but the truth of the matter is God gives you what he can get you through. Today was the first time I have ever asked to be placed on a prayer list. The next 7 days I will be a complete mess. My son’s court case will be in session and the judge will make the decision if we continue in Juvy court or if we move forward to adult court. I pray that these boys pay for what they have done to my son, or what they have done to me and his dad, his siblings, his family and his friends. I honestly try to think about what was going on in their mind, but I may never know. I am just left here in my pain and my guilt. Guilt that I probably shouldn’t have but as his mom I will always feel that I should have done more. But what more could I have done. I was always there for him. I had conversations with him that I never imagined, but I am glad that he trusted me enough. I know tonight is short, but I just need to speak about Morgan. I needed to say it out loud how I love my son. I miss my son. I would give anything to have him back here with all of us. I hate this for all my of kids. It’s just not fair. But I guess life is just that, not fair. you deal with the cards you are dealt with. I am trying to deal with it with grace! I hope that people see that.

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