As I go to sleep tonight, I realize I have 3 days left to see what our fate will be. It’s out of my control, it is out of my hands. There is nothing I can do to make this go the way that we pray that it does. As a mom that is one of the hardest things to realize. I’m a planner. If plan A doesn’t work out then I have plan B and Plan C ready to go. But here I am putting my faith in God’s hands and others that I barely know. I putting my faith in people that tell me they are fighting right along side of me. Is that the truth, I have no idea. Faith is such a strong and incredible word. I have faith in my family, in my kids, in my village, in my God. But what about these strangers that I have only met in the last 4 months. They didn’t know my son the way that we did. They never got to see the goofy side of him. Or how we could drive his siblings mad in 3.2 seconds. They didn’t get to here that beautiful laugh. They didn’t get to feel his hugs or hear him say that He loved you. Never have they heard him call me momma dukes. But here I am putting all my faith into people that I don’t even know to help us get justice for Morgan. These last 4 months have brought so many hurdles in my life. Things I could have never of dreamt about. Things I would never wish on anyone, no matter how evil they are. Strength and weakness are words that can’t come close to the way that we feel. I am not even sure how to explain the feelings I have had. I want to stay in bed with the covers pulled over my head and pretend this is all a nightmare. But this has become by reality. MY REALITY! What? Why? How? I have so many questions that may never be answered. After Wednesday I may get answer that will lead to even more questions. But for tonight as I lay my head down I will pray that I am able to put my faith into these strangers that have never met my son, that they will go there and fight for him as if I was standing up there. This right here has been there hardest thing I’ve ever had to do, sit still while I watch someone else fight the way that I would. I will have my village there with me. I will have my church family with me. I will have my family with me. I hope and I pray that with all the love that will be surrounding us Wednesday that it will help put all my faith Into strangers that never even said his name.

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